This artistic zine explores my personal mental landscape at the age of 19, a time suspended between childhood and adulthood. The visual style mirrors this tension—playful yet unsettling, layered with a sense of disruption. Through the pages, I reflect on the emotional push-and-pull of navigating responsibility, identity, and self-discovery. This book stands as both an artifact of my present self and a raw expression of the transitional experience of being nineteen.